summer... is over
lets see...
todays the second last day of summer.. wow i cant believe its already over. so much has happened, so many problems, breakups, fights, crushes, everything...
id love to say that i dont want this summer to end ever, but i do. i want school to start becuause you get to meet new people to grow close too, have secrets with, joke around with, laugh with, to do everything with.
right now i dont feel all that close to anyone, i feel that im actually stepping out on my own for once, and decieding stuff on my own. i never was one to 'follow' another person or the crowd, i always did my own thing. i guess now im just starting to show it.
i mean yes i do have close friends, but if i had to pick who im the closest to, it would be myself. for once.
ive been thinking about everything thats happened in the course of 8th grade, and the whole summer. so much has, and everyones changed because of the descisions that they have made over those 12 months.
everyones going to change, its just that for me.. i hate it. i get attached to stuff so easily and when things change, i get real upset. ive been upset for the past few days, but i finally think im getting over it
most of the reason tho has been because of my mom. shes been in a really bad mood and has goten me to cry 2 times in the past week.. its pretty horrible. shes been mean and inconsiderate... most of the time all i think she thinks about is herself.
most of my friends who have been to my house wouldnt expect that at all. they all say "Jes your moms so nice! how can you say shes so mean!" but trust me shes pretty horrible. shes gone behind my back, lied to me, told me im a horrible daughter...everything. She ever BROKE MY DOOR DOWN! even tho you all have heard that story.
ugh im i dont even know.
im leaving soon, my mom and markus are taking me shopping.. and i have to get abbie a bday present!
oo! peters comming home today! hes been gone all weekend.
imout- later