friends, a new insight
Isn't it crazy, how one year things can be one way, and another year it can all be totally diffrent.
Its weird. I have been thinking about all the people who I have been 'friends' with ever since I started school. If I put down some of there names, you wouldn't even think that we were ever really friends, because now things have changed.
I think the reason I started to think about this was when I went to Grind with Peter, Julia was there. I haven't talked to her since before 8th grade. And its strange, I used to be really good friends with her, and now we don't even talk.
Things change so much over our lifetimes, I guess we don't really take to much time to relize it, nor think about it. But I think it is one of the craziest things about humans. We can forget and remember so much stuff. We can forget how we used to always hang out with some people, but then we can remember it again.
No one would hate anyone else if nothing ever changed, because if nothing ever changed we would still all be friends with one another.
I think though, that I've settled down with the whole friends thing. I'm content with the people I hang out with now, even if it isn't a million people. I'm also fine with not being friends with everyone. Yes, there are people I don't like, but I'm not even thinking about them anymore, im putting them aside and thinking about my friends more. Having better times with them. No more of that drama bullshit, no one needs it, I don't see why we all put ourselves through it so much. I guess its just a part of growing up, and everyone grows out of it sometime. I know people who have, and who haven't. They will in time.
I'm normally not to 'deep' in this diary, but I'm starting to think I have been changing a lot since the end of school, and I'm not trying not to change, because no matter what sometime or another it will happen, so why not let it happen now.
I don't know. I think what friends are is like this quote that I found from this one persons diary:
"friendship is not about the hellos or waves or any of that, i can say hello to a stranger. friendship is about counting on that person to be there when you need them. if you count them out with hellos and waves, they really arent your friend."
No matter if you have one friend or 5000, a friend is a friend. Most likley if you have '5000 friends' there really not your friends at all.
I can truly say that I have 6 friends that I can truley count on. The others, I guess I could tell somethings, but there not the kind of friends these are. I thank them for always being there, I think they know who they are.
I used to think that I had life figured out, now I know I don't. Neither does anybody else.