summers fading away- becoming dull
Life latley, it's been a rollercoaster of emotions. I don't even want to explain them, because it's so hard for me to. I'm so used to covering up my feelings and just letting it be, but now I'm forcing myself to try and open up about it. It's hard. Eventually, i'll get it. Not many people really understand the feelings i'm going through either. I mean they're feelings you would have to have experienced insted of just thought about. It's been rough latley.
Yesterday I saw Jimmy for the first time in a long time, it didn't bother me, but it was all and all akward, for the reason that he had his girlfriend with him, the girl he cheated on me with. It's not that I have anything against him, but it's dumb how on the phone he'll act all nice and then when he gets around me it all turns to anger. I don't get it. I mean he was the one who called me a few days before my birthday all nice and being exciting about it. Oh well, it doesn't matter to me anymore, he no longer a part of my life.
Hung out with Allison yesterday, after not seeing her for a whole week. We just drove around like normal, got our Mcdonalds and had a kick ass time. We went some crazy places, but it was good.
I feel so bored with today, and I just woke up 10 minutes ago. There's nothing to do anymore, summer is getting dull. I'm actually looking forward to going back to school, not because I like school, but weekends then are so much more exciting then days in the summer.
I think I'm going to go on a walk today. Maybe up to the Elem. school which is basically ripped in half, actually half of it is missing. Hah, I remember hanging out there everyday with Pete, Jordan, Ivan, Jan, Sasha, or Andrea, even Nicole sometimes. That summer absolutley rocked. Nothing like this years. I've had my great kick ass times, but not as many as back then. That reminds me, I need my skateboard back from Jordan still.
I'm out on that, I update this way to many times then I should. I guess it's the bordom. Later--