so much pleasure, so much pain.
It seems as though I read over all the people on my buddylist as they update, that I felt the same way they do now a few months ago. I feel like I am just a step ahead of them in how they feel. It's really weird. Like I can go ready Shannon's diary and how she feels for Chad right now is how I have been with Peter, and how Alexa is feeling exactly how I did after Pete and I broke up, but then I read Chels' diary and I did feel like she did a little while ago after Shelby broke up with Jason, how she wanted to hang out again. Sorry if that angered you Shelby, it's just how I felt. It's just I think it's so weird how the feelings I had a few months ago are the same as the ones people I know have now. I wish I could just talk to all of them, and try and help them, give them advice, because I know what it feels like to be in the situations they are in, but I don't want to just go bardging into their lives. Oh well.
I've been driving a lot latley. It feels so relaxing just to go drive around Park Forest, because latley with my family thing has been stressful. I'm trying to work things out. I don't really know how to handle a lot of the things going on with my parents. I'm just trying my best.
Pete's comming over tonight I think to watch the VMAs which will be exciting. Right now I'm at my mom's, but I'm going to shower and go back to my dad's sometime, because if I want Pete to come watch them with my, it will have to be at my dad's. He wont come to my mom's. I'm going to leave it at that.