theyy sayyy.. theres one in the world for everyonee
I have been slacking with my art work latley. I need to get out there and take more pictures, I need to draw more and I have to keep updating my deviantART, which I have not been. I need to focus on the most importnat things to me. I need to take life seriously. I need to grow up. I need to relize life isn't all fun and games. I'm having some sort of realization about a lot of things I think. I'm maturing in ways I never knew I could. I've relized that you have to focus on what you want to do in life, and do it. You can't hold back for anyone. Why should you? Would that person hold back for you?
I've been constantly thinking about relationships/love latley. I'm sort of in a fix on what I should do. Being inlove was the best part of my life, and I still am in love, but it's like the passion has declined. I don't know how to explain it, and I guess you wouldn't understand by me telling you until you go through it yourself. It's one big whirlwin of passion and hate. You can feel so incredible, but then at the same time so bad. I love being inlove. I love being with the one who has made me feel so great for so long. I love just being with him. I mean, he makes everything so much better, and he's my biggest weakness. I could be so mad at him, but if he came to see me I would just automatically give it up because he just has so much control over me that that happens. And I really think it's bad, because it's like I can't hold my own ground and stand up for myself. I'm trying to change. That's all I can say.
Maybe I'm just thinking to hard.
I really want this for christmas. That would be really great. I also want my iPod mini in green. But I might just ask for a regular one with 15 because it holds more. I don't know. That's basically all I want this year for christmas. Other then money to save up.
I'm going to go. I need to eat and then I have the choir concert to attend. Have a good one.