collegee//
I already updated today, but I decided to update some more.
I was thinking about college a lot. I want to go north. I want to get out of here. I can't wait to live on my own. I can't wait to be able to get away from all those people that during the summer you dont want to go back to school to see. I want to go to Michigan, or New York. I want to go to the city. I love the city. I'm going to live there no matter what. I think I get my passion for big citys from my father. He lived in Philadelphia for so long, and I know it doesn't compair at all the NYC, which is where I want to go, but still it's a hell of a lot bigger then here. State College is a tonw where almost everyone can talk about everyone else, and a lot of people do talk about everyone else. In a big city there's no way more then 1/100th of the population knows who you are, unless you're one of those exceptions, which I know Peter will be someday. But anways, I want to start over. Am I the only one who wants to go away with a clean slate and just start their lives over from scratch? I wnat to work for a big time magazine being a photographer, and photograph the city and celebrities. I want to be able to live in an appartment that over looks the city. I want a bright orange couch. I want my own kitchen. I want to be able to stay out as long as I want at night. I want to support myself and live on my own. Have my own escape. And not in State College. I don't think I could live going to Penn State, because it would be like high school all over again. The same stuff, and a lot of the same people, and I couldn't take that. Penn State would be the easy way out for me. It's like I could stay here to be with mommie and daddie and stay in my hometown that I know like the back of my hand and not get out there and be alone and get to know a new city. But I want to get away. It's what I need. Maybe I'll take a year off and go cross country or to Europe. That would be wonderful. I might consider that. I'm so excited to get out. I wish I was 18..